Dr. Cynthia Miller

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Escaping The Box into The Unknown

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Trying to squish myself into the box was horrifying. Humanity's box of inner and outer violence, greed, and fear was not a fun place. For a long time, I didn’t know there was an alternative.

Braced, tight-jaw, shallow breath, I agonized scrunching myself into a rotting small box, filled with scum, built eons ago. Cobwebs of self-hatred billow, my self-worth oozed through smelly dross. Patches of thought-forms float by triggering my mind to loop in an endless drivel of inner chatter making myself wrong and feeling worthless.

The panic of being caged goes far back through my lineage, through the DNA, and runs through humanity. The old paradigm’s violence morphed into self-hatred. Trapped, terror sets in. Running in circles, keeping busy, attempting to cram myself to fit in better. All are useless pursuits.

All of me couldn’t coexist. There was no space for every part of me in the small smelly box. My creativity was channeled into pre-set pathways. Joy stamped out by fear. Intuition, ancient wisdom, and inner knowing all deemed unacceptable. Other people’s thoughts, rather than my essence, formed the wiring of my internal cage.

We all grow up into pre-programmed pre-wired cages that are not custom-built. It’s like the one-size-fits-all blueprint for being human, but there is no space for individual talents, creativity, and brilliance. Many of the pre-programmed boxes are designed to siphon off our essence for someone else’s gain. We’re made to feel worthless, incomplete, or insufficient as our life-creating energy is drained off for others to use.

We are taught that we have to stay inside the box to make a living, to survive. How would the old paradigm run if everyone broke out of his or her boxes? According to the powers in charge, it would be like letting all the rats out of their cages. But, we’re not rats, we’re brilliant people. What if enough people escape the cage to create a new paradigm?

It’s scary to dissolve the box; the fear of the unknown sets in. My life-long desire for inner and outer peace outweighed the angst of change. I knew there was the possibility of a different reality based on love. For eons, the known ways of fear have dominated humanity, creating inherited deep-seated neural structures. It takes great courage to create new neural pathways into the uncharted territory of the new paradigm.

It’s counterintuitive to love the inner cage. But, as I love the cage, the panic, and being squished, everything starts to change. The high frequency of love melts the fear and dissolves the limiting inner structures. The cage is my neural programs and patterns passed down in my lineage, events from my childhood, and shadows wrapped around my DNA.

Thanking myself for all I’ve been through creates an energetic opening. I send gratitude to the box for keeping me small. I cuddle my wounded inner child who is seeking attention and love. I acknowledge the inner battles, the wars my inner critic rages, the self-hatred that resides inside.

The tension, pain, and anguish melt. Mental chatter is swept away in a waterfall of iridescent liquid light tumbling from the back of my neck into my belly. My essence expands; breathing deepens. There’s space for the vulnerable inner child, the brilliant mind of a Ph.D., the creativity of an artist, and the mystical wisdom of the old crone. There is plenty of room to incorporate the adventurous world traveler, white water river guide, and seer into cells.

Iridescent sparkles of joy bubble up from my depths. I experience being deliciously held and loved. A huge smile beams across my face. Luscious contentment fills my body and my being. I feel safe, loved, and protected.

And now, without the box, I create the boundaries and channels for my essence to flow. An internal structure, based on who I am, directed towards the new story of my life that I choose to create. My inner knowing, intuition, and ancient wisdom now have a place to play and be expressed. Multi-dimensional realities merge with everyday events. All parts of me are welcome as the rush of excitement and wonder fills my being.

I’m creating a path into the unknown, a structure that guides my streaming essence to manifest the desires of my heart. My creativity runs free, dancing in the light, propelling me forward.

What parts have you left out trying to squeeze into the box?

You can’t manifest your desires using only part of you. It takes the full YOU to join all your talents, gifts, and skills together to weave your dream into reality.

When a critical mass of people escape the box a new story on earth will emerge beyond the fear and violence, into the new paradigm based on the higher frequencies of love.

It’s time; your vision is needed.

I’ve escaped and so can you.