Being Human Sucks

I’ve been pissed off at humanity for a long time. All the wars, violence, greed, and suffering seem so senseless. Are the global strife and horrors people live through really necessary? It’s all made me judge humanity.

For most of my life, I bought into a limited idea of what it was to be human. Fueled by victim consciousness and run by ancient neural programs of lack of self-worth. Feeling helpless in the context of a larger society and the world.

I learned about humanity from my father. Basically, if someone disagrees with you, you just bomb the shit out of them. He built nuclear bombs. He had his hands in creating the bombs dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki. From my perspective as a child, I had to keep quiet. It was clear, if I disagreed, I would be annihilated. What I knew about people and humanity all came from a place of war, fear, terror, greed, and power. Sprinkle in sexual abuse, a narcissistic alcoholic mother, and my view of people was profoundly negative.

For part of my adult life, I escaped into the wilds of nature to get away from people. It was the only place I felt safe. There is nothing safe or loving about people. I certainly didn’t want to be a human.

So for me, I kept trying not to be human. I didn’t want to be a part of the nasty, dark side of humanity. I kept clearing out the repulsive gremlins hiding within, hoping to somehow transcend being a human. This led to my own suffering, not wanting to be alive, and moments of being half alive.

Researching what others have discovered about being human, I found this beautiful three-part series called HUMAN by Yann Arthus-Bertrand on YouTube. He documents the personal and emotional accounts of people from all around the world about love, hatred, poverty, killing, pain, suffering, and happiness. To me, it's obvious it’s time for humanity to evolve.

Brain Development

Then I looked at the development of the brain and how it works. We are all running on unconscious programs laid down in our nervous systems by the time we are six or seven. Dr. Bruce Lipton states that we have 40 conscious neural connections per second and 40 million unconscious neural connections per second. It starts to make sense.

Humanity is just a bunch of six-year-olds running around, pretending to be grown-up. The majority of people’s brains and unconscious programs haven’t transformed a drop since they were six years old. And many programs have been transferred along for generations. The majority of our thoughts aren’t even ours, they have been passed down for eons. Many parts of our brains are still functioning in ways similar to the caveman days.

Evolving

What if the purpose of this life is to evolve?

When enough people evolve, humanity will start to act in a more kind, thoughtful, and loving way.

But how do we evolve? After years of research, I’ve decided the way to progress is to consciously clean out all the junk in the unconscious. It’s like cleaning out your closet. All the hidden stuff long forgotten in the back of your closet comes out to be seen, exposed in the light, and either discarded or kept. The rules for cleaning clutter are to keep what you love and to get rid of the rest. The same can be said for your unconscious. As you clean out the old crap, the buckets of worthlessness come to the surface and the piles of lies that say who you are is wrong are uncovered.

Another way to look at conscious evolution is to see all the generations of crap stored in the ancient parts of your brain. Imagine your brain is like a computer, but you’ve never cleaned out all the old emails, programs, and operating systems.

Newer programs are added on top of old patterns, and none of them function properly. Archaic designs keep glitching and shutting down your lucid, conscious thoughts. Everything starts to bog down.

Imagine spirals of love, joy, and gratitude weaving through your body-transforming the fears, violence, and pain. This is not some airy-fairy practice. It actually works. The decision needs to be made, to choose to love and be thankful for everything inside yourself. The high frequencies of love and joy shift the ancient neural programs running our lives. This practice is not for the faint of heart, yet when looking at the alternative of living in internal hell for the rest of your life, the choice becomes clear.

Freedom

Freedom arises when the junk starts getting cleared out. There’s a lifting of the weight of inner torment, life becomes more joyful. It’s like being a kid again, only without the trauma and strive if you live through a fucked up childhood.

Now I’m accepting that I am a human. Which gives me permission to be like a kid again. All the dysfunctional parts inside are not my fault. It’s all part of this human design experiment. My life’s work has morphed into learning how to clean up the unconscious and consciously evolve. I’m enjoying the process of clearing the clutter out of my neural programs, DNA, and inner wiring, and developed technologies to help others do the same.

There’s a certain freedom that comes from knowing that everybody’s messed up, everybody’s playing the part of the competent adult, but underneath nobody has their shit together. If they think they do, they’re lying, it’s just their ego.

So be free, enjoy your life. Don’t buy into all the crap that’s programmed in your mind telling you what you’re supposed to do, how you’re to behave, and that you are worthless.

Clean out the debris, create space for joy and aliveness. Don’t be so serious, enjoy this life and live to your fullest. Magic and miracles await those who live in wonder.